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"I love Calvin. He was my brother."
This morning, we stopped by the art store after our chiro appointment, and Charlie picked out paper that he wanted to use "to wrap Calvin's present." It was green foil with green dots.
After we got home, he asked me for a box. Into that
Six years ago today, my first son was stillborn. We named him Calvin Phoenix. I held his tiny body in my arms. And in those too brief moments, I was filled with such a tremendous amount of love and peace.
That love, I've come to recognize, comes from my mother-heart. It
I miss you. I love you. I wish I had you and all of your siblings here with us.
2013.
Happy 3rd birthday, darling boy.
We love you more every day.
Calvin Phoenix is our precious first baby, after whom this project is named. He is in heaven with his sisters Rainbow and Gaelen,
The white "One Who Soars" and black "In Mourning" wristbands are from the MISS Foundation. The March of Dimes wristband (purple) is from the March for Babies.
Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project that consists of photography and reflection. It is for “anyone who is grieving the death
Calvin, Rainbow, Gaelen, and Pixel —
I feel your absence more acutely when the sky is filled with white and the air smells cold and heavy. I miss you most in the moments before rain.
Love, Mommy
Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project that consists of photography and reflection.
"All of Me" is one of those songs that just overcomes me. It sums up how I feel about every one of my children — how I felt when I learned of Calvin's amniotic band syndrome and then held him after he was stillborn, how I felt during each following
The spaces of our home are filled with the presence of all of our babies.
Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project that consists of photography and reflection. It is for “anyone who is grieving the death of a baby or child at any age or gestation.” Learn how
I started Calvin's Cupcakes in memory of my first son Calvin Phoenix. It has been such a humbling honor to abide with other families who have experienced child loss, to share part of their stories, and to create these virtual remembrance cupcakes for their children. To make a request, please