"I love Calvin. He was my brother." This morning, we stopped by the art store after our chiro appointment, and Charlie picked out paper that he wanted to use "to wrap Calvin's present." It was green foil with green dots. After we got home, he asked me for a box. Into that
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It's been two years. Two years since I was last pregnant. Two years since my last pregnancy ended. Two years since: The timing isn't right. Two years since: There's a baby in momma's tummy. Two years since: No heartbeat. Two years since: Trisomy 18, Turner's Syndrome, female. Two years since:
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(Day 10 of the 10-Day "You" Project) Louie, Charlie, and I at Charlie's Christmas-themed 3rd birthday party in June. Calvin, Rainbow, Gaelen, and Pixel aren't far — they're represented in the necklaces I wear almost everyday.
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(Day 2 of the 10-Day "You" Project) My husband, Louie My children: Calvin Phoenix Rainbow Baby Gaelen Evangeline Charlie Bastian Pixel Clementine My creator and savior Writing
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4 years feels so far away. I miss you, my not-so-baby girl. Charlie sent you some birthday kisses today. We love you. 2012. Happy Heaven Day, my sweet Gaelen. Mommy and daddy miss and love you so much ♥ Gaelen Evangeline is our third baby, who joined her big brother and big sister, Calvin
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Six years ago today, my first son was stillborn. We named him Calvin Phoenix. I held his tiny body in my arms. And in those too brief moments, I was filled with such a tremendous amount of love and peace. That love, I've come to recognize, comes from my mother-heart. It
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I miss you. I love you. I wish I had you and all of your siblings here with us. 2013. Happy 3rd birthday, darling boy. We love you more every day. Calvin Phoenix is our precious first baby, after whom this project is named. He is in heaven with his sisters Rainbow and Gaelen,
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