"I love Calvin. He was my brother." This morning, we stopped by the art store after our chiro appointment, and Charlie picked out paper that he wanted to use "to wrap Calvin's present." It was green Continue Reading »
“When will you have another one?”
It's been two years. Two years since I was last pregnant. Two years since my last pregnancy ended. Two years since: The timing isn't right. Two years since: There's a baby in momma's tummy. Two years Continue Reading »
One Photo of Yourself
(Day 10 of the 10-Day "You" Project) Louie, Charlie, and I at Charlie's Christmas-themed 3rd birthday party in June. Calvin, Rainbow, Gaelen, and Pixel aren't far — they're represented in Continue Reading »
Two Songs
(Day 9 of the 10-Day "You" Project) "The Call" by Regina Spector "I Will Carry You" by Selah Continue Reading »
Nine Loves
(Day 2 of the 10-Day "You" Project) My husband, Louie My children: Calvin Phoenix Rainbow Baby Gaelen Evangeline Charlie Bastian Pixel Clementine My creator and Continue Reading »
Happy 6th Birthday, Calvin Phoenix
Six years ago today, my first son was stillborn. We named him Calvin Phoenix. I held his tiny body in my arms. And in those too brief moments, I was filled with such a tremendous amount of love and Continue Reading »
I breastfeed my toddler because I want to
Charlie wanted to nurse while we were waiting for our food at Beach Chalet with my in-laws today. He was tired and hungry. I told him that the food was coming soon, but he insisted, I want to nurse, Continue Reading »
Capture Your Grief – Day 14: Light and Dark
The white "One Who Soars" and black "In Mourning" wristbands are from the MISS Foundation. The March of Dimes wristband (purple) is from the March for Babies. Capture Your Grief is an annual, Continue Reading »
