"I love Calvin. He was my brother." This morning, we stopped by the art store after our chiro appointment, and Charlie picked out paper that he wanted to use "to wrap Calvin's present." It was green Continue Reading »
“When will you have another one?”
It's been two years. Two years since I was last pregnant. Two years since my last pregnancy ended. Two years since: The timing isn't right. Two years since: There's a baby in momma's tummy. Two years Continue Reading »
One Photo of Yourself
(Day 10 of the 10-Day "You" Project) Louie, Charlie, and I at Charlie's Christmas-themed 3rd birthday party in June. Calvin, Rainbow, Gaelen, and Pixel aren't far — they're represented in Continue Reading »
Two Songs
(Day 9 of the 10-Day "You" Project) "The Call" by Regina Spector "I Will Carry You" by Selah Continue Reading »
Nine Loves
(Day 2 of the 10-Day "You" Project) My husband, Louie My children: Calvin Phoenix Rainbow Baby Gaelen Evangeline Charlie Bastian Pixel Clementine My creator and Continue Reading »
For my Gaelen Evangeline
2015. 4 years feels so far away. I miss you, my not-so-baby girl. Charlie sent you some birthday kisses today. We love you. 2012. Happy Heaven Day, my sweet Gaelen. Mommy and daddy miss Continue Reading »
Happy 6th Birthday, Calvin Phoenix
Six years ago today, my first son was stillborn. We named him Calvin Phoenix. I held his tiny body in my arms. And in those too brief moments, I was filled with such a tremendous amount of love and Continue Reading »
For my Calvin Phoenix
I miss you. I love you. I wish I had you and all of your siblings here with us. 2013. Happy 3rd birthday, darling boy. We love you more every day. Calvin Phoenix is our precious first Continue Reading »
