For my Pixel Clementine
I love you, baby girl. I miss you everyday. Pixel Clementine is our fifth child and fourth in heaven. We lost her early in pregnancy after a missed miscarriage and MUA on November 27, 2013. We learned that she had Turner’s Syndrome and Trisomy 18. She plays in the clouds…
I breastfeed my toddler because I want to
Charlie wanted to nurse while we were waiting for our food at Beach Chalet with my in-laws today. He was tired and hungry. I told him that the food was coming soon, but he insisted, I want to nurse, and was on the verge of crying. So I pulled out his…
Capture Your Grief – Day 14: Light and Dark
The white “One Who Soars” and black “In Mourning” wristbands are from the MISS Foundation. The March of Dimes wristband (purple) is from the March for Babies. Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project that consists of photography and reflection. It is for “anyone who is grieving the…
Capture Your Grief – Day 13: Season
Calvin, Rainbow, Gaelen, and Pixel — I feel your absence more acutely when the sky is filled with white and the air smells cold and heavy. I miss you most in the moments before rain. Love, Mommy Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project that consists of photography…
Capture Your Grief – Day 12: Music
“All of Me” is one of those songs that just overcomes me. It sums up how I feel about every one of my children — how I felt when I learned of Calvin’s amniotic band syndrome and then held him after he was stillborn, how I felt during each following…
Capture Your Grief – Day 11: Altar
The spaces of our home are filled with the presence of all of our babies. Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project that consists of photography and reflection. It is for “anyone who is grieving the death of a baby or child at any age or gestation.” Learn…
Capture Your Grief – Day 9: In Memory
I started Calvin’s Cupcakes in memory of my first son Calvin Phoenix. It has been such a humbling honor to abide with other families who have experienced child loss, to share part of their stories, and to create these virtual remembrance cupcakes for their children. To make a request, please…