i miss the back pain and how difficult it was to get up i miss the waddling i miss the growth in my belly i miss feeling beautiful because of him i miss feeling his movements and the first and Continue Reading »
each morning
grey overwhelms blue without my light, my sweet son wet fog surrounds me Continue Reading »
Sometimes, I Need to Fall Apart
I don't like choking down tears. I don't like pretending to be happy or content when all I can think about is how my baby should be with me, how I should still be pregnant, how Louie and I should have Continue Reading »
Calvin’s Day at the Beach
A couple weeks ago, I went kite flying at ocean beach with my husband, our roommate, my sister-in-law, and my brother-in-law. It was my first time at the beach since before Louie and I had our church Continue Reading »
The Cord
by Terri Apostolakos We are connected, my child and I, By an invisible cord not seen by the eye. It's not like the cord that connects us at birth This cord can't be seen by any on earth. This cord Continue Reading »
2 Months and 27 Weeks.
Today marks 2 months since I found out about my baby's passing. It also marks what should be would have been the beginning of my 27th week of pregnancy. My estimated due date was August 4, 2009. Continue Reading »
Though I Am Broken, He Lifts Me Up
Yes, I do have faith in God, and I truly believe He has a greater purpose for calling Calvin Phoenix. After I delivered Calvin, I decided that I would lay my son at His feet, that my first child, my Continue Reading »
My Failings as a Mother
I should not have exerted myself so much in the beginning of my pregnancy because I was spotting and cramping for almost two months of my pregnancy, and it increased when I was on my feet and walking Continue Reading »
