One of the women in my support group mentioned that she makes cupcakes on the same day of every month, the date of her son's birthday, as a way to honor and remember him. I think it's a beautiful Continue Reading »
My First Mothers Day
First, yes, I do know I'm a month and another major holiday late. If it's any consolation, I did share these photos on BabyCenter and Facebook the night of Mother's Day. It's just that sometimes it Continue Reading »
To the Father of My Missing Child
I know I can't make you whole again But I'm here. I'm here to catch your tears in the palms of my hand, to try to make the landing a little less rough when you fall, because I'm falling, too. So Continue Reading »
Songs that Remind Me of Calvin
"Held" by Natalie Grant "Little Soul" by Oswald Continue Reading »
Things I Miss
i miss the back pain and how difficult it was to get up i miss the waddling i miss the growth in my belly i miss feeling beautiful because of him i miss feeling his movements and the first and Continue Reading »
each morning
grey overwhelms blue without my light, my sweet son wet fog surrounds me Continue Reading »
Sometimes, I Need to Fall Apart
I don't like choking down tears. I don't like pretending to be happy or content when all I can think about is how my baby should be with me, how I should still be pregnant, how Louie and I should have Continue Reading »
Calvin’s Day at the Beach
A couple weeks ago, I went kite flying at ocean beach with my husband, our roommate, my sister-in-law, and my brother-in-law. It was my first time at the beach since before Louie and I had our church Continue Reading »