To those who say not to let my grief define me, I say, "Why not?" Our everyday experiences shape who we are. So why not the extraordinary ones that rip our hearts open? A heart that knows mourning is tender not only to its own aching but to that of
Read MoreThis month, the 5th is special for several reasons: this is Calvin's 50th month in heaven (that actually makes me want to cry, knowing how long it's been since I've held him), it is International Bereaved Mothers Day, and it is the 1 year anniversary of Still Standing Magazine and the heavenly birthday
Read MoreThank you so much to Blaine's mommy, Elaine, for this gift ♥Around this time last year, I designed an image that shared a quote by Elizabeth Edwards about how much it means when others mention our babies who've died. That will never change. What has changed is this: I used
Read MoreI'll see you in heaven, my Calvin. Mommy loves you. (Posted via Instagram)
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Happy 5th my Calvin... I can't believe next month will be 4 years. I miss you everyday. (Posted via Instagram)
Read MoreMy dad asked Louie to paint his handlebars with the names of his grandchildren. So Louie painted *all* of their names: Divinity, Jayden, Sky, Jayme, Calvin, Rainbow, Kimora, Jayde, Gaelen, Kihana, Charlie, and Pixel. I added the quote, "Great fathers get promoted to grandfathers" on the left side.
Read MoreI "stole" this image from the hubby to post because seeing Charlie hold big brother Calvin's urn makes my heart ache and swell at the same time. Happy 5th Calvin. (Posted via Instagram)
Read MoreI have been writing this post in my head for weeks. It's been on my mind since before November 5th, yet here I am, almost at the end of the month and finally getting the words down and planning to finally click the "Publish" button. It's not that I forgot.
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