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Day 6: What Not to Say (Capture Your Grief)

They’re in a better place: as a parent, it’s hard to accept that there is a better place for my child than with me, and even though I know being with God is the best place, it won’t stop my longing. Anything that begins with At least is probably more…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Capturing Grief

Today, I want to share a photo-a-day project I’m participating in called “Capture Your Grief,” which was created by Carly Marie, an amazing force in the babyloss community. It provides a way for bereaved families to process and share their grief during Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month (click the…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Rainbow in the city

As the 5th approached, I started wondering what I could write about. I’m still hesitant to write about Charlie much, maybe because I think of this as a space for remembering my other babies, maybe partly because being a part of the baby loss community, I feel guilty sharing about…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Calvin’s namesake

On August 5, 2012, Posted by , In Calvin Phoenix, By , , With 1 Comment

A couple years ago, I posted about Calvin’s drawings in the clouds, and including the following photo of a patch Calvin’s godfather, Miquan, had made for his motorcycle jacket. The dragon represents Miquan and the phoenix represents Calvin. Last night I received the most amazing text message from Miquan. He…

Three in Heaven & One on Earth

I have yet to write about Charlie’s entrance into this world, especially in this space, but if you’ve been visiting, you probably noticed the tweets and Instagram pics of my earth baby. That story will come… I am still processing his birth. Today, I wanted to share Charlie’s first event:…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Tears are sacred

Chairs, Candles, and Tissue Not long after losing Calvin, Louie and I began attending a bereaved parents support group through the hospital. We met in the same room every week for two months. The chairs would be arranged in a circle, and in the middle of the circle would be…

A different kind of Mothers Day for me

Today is not my first Mothers Day… I became a mother four years ago, on the Tuesday before Thanksgiving, when I saw two lines that changed me forever. When I delivered my first baby, stillborn at 18 weeks, then held his small body in my arms, I was still his…

A different kind of Mothers Day for me

Today is not my first Mothers Day… I became a mother four years ago, on the Tuesday before Thanksgiving, when I saw two lines that changed me forever. When I delivered my first baby, stillborn at 18 weeks, then held his small body in my arms, I was still his…