Category Archives: Faith

Prayer request for my SIL and unborn niece

On March 7, 2011, Posted by , In Faith,Life, By ,,, , With No Comments

The night of Calvin’s birthday, my sister-in-law’s blood pressure was high. The day before there was protein in her urine. Many of you already know what this means: pre-eclampsia. My SIL, Claire, also has GD. We took her to L&D where she was monitored for 3 hour, and told that…

the ugly cry

On March 4, 2011, Posted by , In Calvin Phoenix,Faith,Rainbow Baby, With No Comments

you know the kind. the kind that fills your entire body and wracks it with sobs. the kind that fills the silence of morning and mourning as primal, gutteral cries force their way through your gasps for air. the kind that chokes you with its pouring and suffocating, with its…

Looking back, so I can face forward

On January 13, 2011, Posted by , In Calvin Phoenix,Faith,Life,TTC & Infertility, By , With No Comments

I’ve been meaning to share my plans/hopes/desires for 2011, because that’s what you do at the beginning of the year, right? I don’t it’s really so much that the advancing of a year holds special power in and of itself. I think it’s because it’s a visible marker to which…

For Faith and Grace, on your 14th birthday

Faith Elizabeth and Grace Katherine are the precious twin daughters of Kelly and Tim Gerken. At around 20 weeks, after they mother started having pre-term labor, doctor’s discovered that they had twin-to-twin transfusion syndrome. Faith and Grace went home to Jesus at 26 weeks and were born still. They have…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Calvin’s Song

On October 5, 2010, Posted by , In Calvin Phoenix,Faith, By , , With No Comments

Dear baby, I need you to know it’s all right, though I still cry for you. I am broken, but I’m broken by love. And I’d rather live in pieces than to have lived without you. (You are my light.) And I understand you couldn’t stay, but I can’t wait…

Written in weakness –

On October 1, 2010, Posted by , In Faith,Life,Miscarriage,Parenting,TTC After Loss, By , With No Comments

(a letter of desperation while counting down the months to infertility) Dear God, Thank you for blessing us with our two babies. I love them with all my heart. I know that, with You, they are safe and happy and whole. But – (And I know that I am selfish….

Almost-Wordless Wednesday – Thank you, Izzie.

On September 29, 2010, Posted by , In Faith,Photography, By , With No Comments

I just received this beautiful gift from a wonderful friend and fellow babyloss mama, who recently had her rainbow baby girl. Thank you, Izzie. I am truly blessed in this brokenness of being without my babies, and God is still good.

Threads of Hope, Pieces of Joy: Lesson 9 – Finding Joy

Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, in the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13. In the beginning of this lesson we read in Ezra about the return to Jerusalem, which had been turned into a…