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The 5th Belongs to Calvin: In My Heart Giveaways

Dear Calvin, It’s your 35th month in heaven, and I can’t believe your 3rd heavenly birthday is just around the corner. I wanted to do something creative and design-y for today. So, I decided to create a Valentine’s-inspired e-tag with the message Always, I will carry you in my heart,…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: You made me a mother

Dear Calvin, I am the furthest I have ever been in pregnancy, carrying your baby brother or sister. Today, I am 18 weeks and 3 days. I delivered you at 18 weeks and 1 day. Although you did not come out of my womb alive, although you were born two…

Warm wishes from our family to yours

Remembering the Little Ones we Miss

In honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, Calvin’s Cupcakes is offering this free PAIL Cupcake for you to use for your baby/babies. Just click on the image to go to Calvin’s Cupcakes, where you can get the the high resolution version. In addition to my Calvin, Rainbow, and…

Three flowers

I attended a “Walk to Remember” remembrance walk and ceremony in Clearwater with some of my BabyCenter GBJ girls, their husbands, and their rainbow babies. Part of it included putting flowers on and around a memorial tree, planted in the park for babies who have died and their families. The…

Patterns I shouldn’t dwell on

It was a Sunday. The Sunday after Ash Wednesday. Louie and I were attending Mass at St. Basil’s Church. We wanted to light a candle by the Sacred Heart of Jesus. There were no more candles. Louie stopped one of the deacons and asked him to pray for us and…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Dandiewinks Prelaunch

I’ve been interested in many-things artsy, crafty, and designy for almost as long as I can remember. From making flyers, programs, and invitations for family, my youth group, and department events in college; to freelance web and print projects; to the pendants, blocks, and paintings I create. After I had…

I Would Die for That by Kellie Coffey

On September 2, 2011, Posted by , In Family,Gaelen Evangeline,Louie,TTC & Infertility, By , With No Comments

Every time I watch this video, I am reduced to big, heavy tears. Tears of missing Calvin, Rainbow, and Gaelen, Of wanting them here—alive. Of wanting Calvin and Rainbow nestled on either side of me and Gaelen still growing safely in my belly. Tears that question if Louie and I will ever…