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Category Archives: Honor & Remember

Capture Your Grief – Day 1: Sunrise

6:56am, San Francisco, CA at sunrise grey overwhelms blue the light fades into mourning wet fog surrounds me I wrote my first version of this poem, “each morning,” about two months after Calvin (my first baby) died. In those raw days of grieving, waking up to the reality that my…

October 15th

Three of my babies died. I miss them. I love them. I remember them — not that I’ve ever forgotten. It’s just that today, I am allowed to be a bereaved mother, to mourn, and to speak of the babies I carry in my heart. No one can tell me…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: International Bereaved Mothers Day – I choose to live and to honor you

This month, the 5th is special for several reasons: this is Calvin’s 50th month in heaven (that actually makes me want to cry, knowing how long it’s been since I’ve held him), it is International Bereaved Mothers Day, and it is the 1 year anniversary of Still Standing Magazine and…

Grandkids on His Handlebars

My dad asked Louie to paint his handlebars with the names of his grandchildren. So Louie painted *all* of their names: Divinity, Jayden, Sky, Jayme, Calvin, Rainbow, Kimora, Jayde, Gaelen, Kihana, Charlie, and Pixel. I added the quote, “Great fathers get promoted to grandfathers” on the left side.

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Capturing Grief

Today, I want to share a photo-a-day project I’m participating in called “Capture Your Grief,” which was created by Carly Marie, an amazing force in the babyloss community. It provides a way for bereaved families to process and share their grief during Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month (click the…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Tears are sacred

Chairs, Candles, and Tissue Not long after losing Calvin, Louie and I began attending a bereaved parents support group through the hospital. We met in the same room every week for two months. The chairs would be arranged in a circle, and in the middle of the circle would be…

And because we will never forget…

Over at Dandiewinks, I’ve shared several cards to honor the grief some of us feel on Mothers Day. Here’s a small preview of a couple of the them: There are also cards for those of you are missing your own mothers and grandmothers and a “Thinking of You” card for…

The Donate Art Project at Beyond Words Designs

Stephanie, mommy to heaven baby, Amelia Rose, is the artist behind Beyond Words Designs and does beautiful work that supports grieving parents, honors the babies we have lost, and celebrates life and pregnancy. Recently, she started the Donate Art Project, which provides beautiful art cards for families who have lost…