The Calvin Phoenix Photo Project
Photo of the Month: CalvinE and Crystal Hill
I decided to get off the bus early on Wednesday and just wander down Clement Street because I knew Louie wouldn't be home until after 10pm because of his class. I walked into Genki, and as we usually do when we walk around that store, I looked for something for Read More
I've had two dreams about giving birth to a dead baby.
I'm in the hospital, and I know it's a different place and time. I remember pushing and laboring, then passing out. I have flashes of them wrapping the baby up in a yellow receiving blanket. Louie is with Read More
I know I can't
make you whole again
But I'm here.
I'm here to catch
your tears in the palms of my hand,
to try to make the landing a little less
when you fall,
because I'm falling,
too. So I'll go down with you,
when we are
ready, we can
help one another climb
back up, when we are ready,
but only Read More
Yes, I do have faith in God, and I truly believe He has a greater purpose for calling Calvin Phoenix. After I delivered Calvin, I decided that I would lay my son at His feet, that my first child, my son would be my Lenten sacrifice and that I would Read More
While I was pregnant with Calvin, I looked forward to all of the holidays I would get to spend with him in my belly - his first of almost every major holiday with me and Louie. I found out I was pregnant on the Tuesday before Thanksgiving, and I was Read More
The hardest part about looking for an urn for my baby was having to acknowledge my baby's death. Each picture I looked at, every description of dimension and size – it was like being told over and over again the baby has passed away.
Louie's words, We're doing this for Calvin. Read More