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Mothers Day Remembrance Cards

Mothers Day is a beautiful celebration, but it’s also a time of heartache for those of us who have lost children, who have lost our mothers or grandmothers, or who are struggling with infertility. To help honor this grief, I’ve created several cards, which are free for your use. I…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: A simple gift for bereaved parents

It’s been 38 months since Calvin was born. I can’t believe it’s been over three years. Especially in the early days of grief, it was hard to imagine surviving. But here I am, a survivor of stillbirth, two miscarriages, and infertility. Today, I am 35 weeks and 5 days pregnant…

“…you remember that they lived…”

On May 5, 2012, Posted by , In Photography,Quotes, By ,,, , With 1 Comment

I think this may end up being something I do often as a way to remember and honor my first son, Calvin Phoenix, who is 38 months in heaven today. I created the following card as a reminder to others that mentioning the loved ones we’ve lost is a source…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Deeply Loved

During my freshman year of college, Louie gave me a blue stuffed bunny that was wearing a knit Easter sweater. I named it Louie Bunny. Then, I started calling Louie Bunny. Then we both started calling each other Bunny. When I got pregnant with Calvin, we referred to him as…

Not-so-Wordless Wednesday

On October 12, 2011, Posted by , In Charlie Bastian,Photography,Pregnancy, By , With No Comments

For the past 8 days, I’ve been sticking one of these capsules in me when I wake up in the morning and before I got to bed at night. I don’t like it. It’s uncomfortable and messy and sometimes it hurts. But I will keep doing this for the next…

Looking for Brown

On October 11, 2011, Posted by , In Honor & Remember,Photography, By , , With No Comments

Have you heard of Beryl Young’s Illuminate photographic healing class? It’s a 5-week course that combines creative photography and journaling for bereaved parents. She’s currently offering a free lesson called “Color Your World.” Over at Dandiewinks, I’m sharing the results of my photo walk as I looked for the color…

Illuminate: Color Your World lesson in Photographic Healing

On October 11, 2011, Posted by , In Photography, By ,,, , With No Comments

Brown represents the things I long for, the things I’m working towards: comfort, endurance, stability, trust, simplicity, home. I want all of these because I want to show my heaven babies that I am worthy of being their mother, that I am worthy of being their father’s wife, and that…

Day 5 of Project Pee-a-thon

Day 5 Rundown Cycle Day: 22 Days Past Ovulation: 7 HPT Result: BFN Symptoms: Some pinching/cramping throughout the day, tender breasts, small bouts of nausea (similar to the Clomid cycle) Emotions: Anxious about the next few days Other: As more and more rainbow and pot-of-gold baby announcements come, I wonder…