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Capture Your Grief – Day 2: Heart

Because I cannot hold them in my arms, I carry them in my heart: Calvin Phoenix (03.05.2009) Rainbow (12.10.2009) Gaelen Evangeline (03.24.2011) Pixel Clementine (11.27.2013) Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project that consists of photography and reflection. It is for “anyone who is grieving the death of…

Capture Your Grief – Day 1: Sunrise

6:56am, San Francisco, CA at sunrise grey overwhelms blue the light fades into mourning wet fog surrounds me I wrote my first version of this poem, “each morning,” about two months after Calvin (my first baby) died. In those raw days of grieving, waking up to the reality that my…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Capturing Grief

Today, I want to share a photo-a-day project I’m participating in called “Capture Your Grief,” which was created by Carly Marie, an amazing force in the babyloss community. It provides a way for bereaved families to process and share their grief during Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month (click the…

Between

I’ve decided to participate in NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month), a daily blogging challenge that offers a theme and prompts to guide you along the way. This month’s theme is “Between,” which goes perfectly with how I’ve been feeling and where I find myself: between hope and despair, between love…

Day 5 of Project Pee-a-thon

Day 5 Rundown Cycle Day: 22 Days Past Ovulation: 7 HPT Result: BFN Symptoms: Some pinching/cramping throughout the day, tender breasts, small bouts of nausea (similar to the Clomid cycle) Emotions: Anxious about the next few days Other: As more and more rainbow and pot-of-gold baby announcements come, I wonder…

Days 11 & 12 of Project Pee-a-thon: Second Lab Results

Pregnancy update and a photo pregnancy tests to follow, so please feel free to click away if this is not something you can or want to read about right now. I understand.

Day 10 of Project Pee-a-thon: Where do I go from here?

As I mostly officially announced yesterday, I am pregnant. I know that I have some readers who are still trying, and my heart really aches for you. I know feeling “left behind,” and even now, even after learning that we are blessed with another pregnancy, I still feel pangs of…

Day 9 of Project Pee-a-thon

Day 9 Rundown Cycle Day: 26 Days Past Ovulation: 11