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The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Capturing Grief

Today, I want to share a photo-a-day project I’m participating in called “Capture Your Grief,” which was created by Carly Marie, an amazing force in the babyloss community. It provides a way for bereaved families to process and share their grief during Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month (click the…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Rainbow in the city

As the 5th approached, I started wondering what I could write about. I’m still hesitant to write about Charlie much, maybe because I think of this as a space for remembering my other babies, maybe partly because being a part of the baby loss community, I feel guilty sharing about…

Three in Heaven & One on Earth

I have yet to write about Charlie’s entrance into this world, especially in this space, but if you’ve been visiting, you probably noticed the tweets and Instagram pics of my earth baby. That story will come… I am still processing his birth. Today, I wanted to share Charlie’s first event:…

A different kind of Mothers Day for me

Today is not my first Mothers Day… I became a mother four years ago, on the Tuesday before Thanksgiving, when I saw two lines that changed me forever. When I delivered my first baby, stillborn at 18 weeks, then held his small body in my arms, I was still his…

A different kind of Mothers Day for me

Today is not my first Mothers Day… I became a mother four years ago, on the Tuesday before Thanksgiving, when I saw two lines that changed me forever. When I delivered my first baby, stillborn at 18 weeks, then held his small body in my arms, I was still his…

30 answers for 30 years

This past Sunday was my 30th birthday. It wasn’t until last week when Louie I were talking about my birthday and he mentioned The big 3-0 that I realized how old I was turning. My response was, Nooo… I’m not turning 30, yet. Wait. I am. Really??? I remember when…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: In My Heart Giveaways

Dear Calvin, It’s your 35th month in heaven, and I can’t believe your 3rd heavenly birthday is just around the corner. I wanted to do something creative and design-y for today. So, I decided to create a Valentine’s-inspired e-tag with the message Always, I will carry you in my heart,…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: You made me a mother

Dear Calvin, I am the furthest I have ever been in pregnancy, carrying your baby brother or sister. Today, I am 18 weeks and 3 days. I delivered you at 18 weeks and 1 day. Although you did not come out of my womb alive, although you were born two…