Family
Happy Birthday, Mama
On Saturday, Louie and I went to visit my grandmother at the cemetery. It was her birthday. We brought Calvin. I thought about her rocking him in her arms and singing to him. I emptied and rinsed her vases and used a dishwashing brush and Clorox wipes to clean her headstone
Read MoreGaelen’s heaven day and Nathalia’s birthday
Tomorrow morning, my RE will remove the "products of conception" from my womb. I'm not found of that wording, but technically that is what is happening. This is not something that I have blogged or shared with many people, but the itemized statements and insurance claims from when I was
Read MoreThe 5th Belongs to Calvin: This is Calvin’s Daddy
In addition to announcing the winner of my Something Happened giveaway, in this The 5th Belongs to Calvin post, I wanted to share a little bit of Calvin and Rainbow's daddy – the man who has been with me since high school, when I was just a girl trying to
Read MoreI’m Not the Only One Who “Needs Help”
Someone who I desperately need to understand (because of this person's significance in my life), believes that because I lost Calvin so early in his life, my pain is easier compared to someone who lost a child later in life or to someone who lost a parent... that less time
Read MoreHand Talking
On the way back to SF after my 2nd fitting at David's Bridal in Pinole, I called my mom up to let her know that I went ahead and got the bustle for my dress. I also mentioned that I didn't have a veil for the veil ceremony and said
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