The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Showers—a guest post from Daddy

For Calvin’s 3rd heavenly birthday, I asked Louie if he would do a guest post on my blog to share some of our story from his perspective. I’m glad I asked, and I’m glad he agreed, because even now, I continue to learn what it’s like for him to walk…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: In My Heart Giveaways

Dear Calvin, It’s your 35th month in heaven, and I can’t believe your 3rd heavenly birthday is just around the corner. I wanted to do something creative and design-y for today. So, I decided to create a Valentine’s-inspired e-tag with the message Always, I will carry you in my heart,…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: You made me a mother

Dear Calvin, I am the furthest I have ever been in pregnancy, carrying your baby brother or sister. Today, I am 18 weeks and 3 days. I delivered you at 18 weeks and 1 day. Although you did not come out of my womb alive, although you were born two…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Always, You Matter

Dear Calvin, I had my first prenatal appointment with Bumble Bee on Wednesday. The nurse-midwife asked about my previous pregnancies, and when she heard me call you “he,” she asked what your name was. I told her, “Calvin,” as I cried. Then I thanked her for asking your name. She…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: A Calvin’s Cupcakes sneak peek

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Last year, on Calvin’s 1st birthday, I announced Calvin’s Cupcakes. Being able to create these remembrances is such an honor. It’s so special to connect with these children and their families as I’m designing the cupcakes and creating the posts. Today I want to share a sneak peek of something…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Things that will never change

“Happy 5th Calvin. 28 months in heaven. Momma misses you.” (via instagram 07.05.2011) Missing: the way he moved and tumbled,  the sound of his heartbeat, watching him on the ultrasound, his weight in my arms, his face and tiny gums. Longing: to have him back in my arms, for birthdays…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Calvin Loves Kimora (updates below)

This month’s 5th is dedicated to Calvin’s cousin, Kimora Michaela, who was born two months after Calvin’s first birthday. One year ago, I posted about Kimora and her family: first to ask for prayers when Raquel went into labor at 32 weeks, then to give an update and ask for…

F is for I forgot my baby’s day (Please forgive me, Calvin)

Yesterday was the 5th. Today is the 6th. Yesterday I did my post for the A to Z Challenge, but I did NOT post for Calvin. And now I am sitting here crying because I feel like I failed my son by forgetting that the 5th is his day. At…