It started with pieces of me gone with my babies, pieces left behind by grief. I'm in fragments, but it's a beautiful mess, so I'm blessed to be broken.
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Custom Calvin’s Cupcakes

Custom Calvin’s Cupcakes are now available for $20 each. You can customize the flavor and design of your child’s remembrance cupcake as well as receive a high-resolution image. Order a custom cupcake » If you would like a free personalized cupcake, instead, please fill out this cupcake request form.

Heaven Lindgren 2014

Heaven Lindgren (11.05.2013)

I was 33 weeks along, I wasn’t feeling good and was not feeling her move around. I was sent to the hospital for monitoring and they could not find her heartbeat. I went in for a c-section that afternoon and got to spend a few hours with my baby before she was taken away. We named her Heaven and had…

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I breastfeed my toddler because he wants to, because I want to, and because I can.

I breastfeed my toddler because I want to

Charlie wanted to nurse while we were waiting for our food at Beach Chalet with my in-laws today. He was tired and hungry. I told him that the food was coming soon, but he insisted, I want to nurse, and was on the verge of crying. So I pulled out his muslin blanket, covered up, and breastfed him. I noticed our…

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Aaliyah LaShay's remembrance cupcake

Aaliyah LaShay (10.29.2006)

Mommy loves & misses you very much! I will see you again, I promise. She was my first pregnancy. My water broke at 18 weeks, and she was delivered on October 29, 2006. This was 3 days before my ultrasound to find out what she was. I delivered her as if I had gone full term with her. She was…

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Lean into the grief.

Capture Your Grief – Day 28: Wisdom

Two months after Calvin died, we joined the UCSF Compass Care support group for bereaved parents. Our facilitators were Helge Osterholde and Melissa Whippo. They one of the first and few to tell us to honor our feelings, to lean into the grief. They helped me find the path to healing. Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project…

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Forgiveness Heart

Capture Your Grief – Day 24: Forgiveness

“Forgiveness doesn’t excuse their actions. Forgiveness stops their actions from destroying your heart” (Karen Salmansohn). Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project that consists of photography and reflection. It is for “anyone who is grieving the death of a baby or child at any age or gestation.” Learn how you can participate or provide support at Carly Marie Project…

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Amaya Tubman Chaudry (02.10.2013)

“An Angel in the book of life wrote down my baby’s birth and whispered as she closed the book ‘too beautiful for this earth.’” Baby Amaya, forever in our heart’s ♥ loved and missed forever xx

Use your talents to bless others

Capture Your Grief – Day 19: Give

“Your talent is God’s gift to you. What you do with it is your gift back to God.” (Leo Buscaglia) Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project that consists of photography and reflection. It is for “anyone who is grieving the death of a baby or child at any age or gestation.” Learn how you can participate or…

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