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“Because Grief is As Real as Love”

One Who Soars and In Mourning Bracelets
One Who Soars and In Mourning BraceletsThe title of this piece is from the In Mourning Band™ Campaign. Louie and I wear these bands for our babies.

Because grief is as real as love, I mourn.
I mourn my babies
by saying the same things over and over,
by finding different ways to say these things again and again:

I hear them with each step I take—
I love them in the rising.
I miss them in the falling.
I want them in the touching down.

I feel them in my breath—
I love them at the inhale.
I miss them at the pause.
I want them at the exhale.

This is nothing new. My blood flows to this cadence:
I love them. break. I miss them. break. I want them. break.

I wear my grief–
I carry it around my neck and above my heart.

It adorns my eyes, my lips,
—It wears on me with each micro-nano-milli-moment that passes without them.

crystal
Crystal is a mother-wife-writer whose explorations include parenting, grief, food, and semi-crunchy living. She is currently an MFA in writing student, a content editor for Still Standing Magazine, and the technical editor for Switchback.

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