You broke my heart this year.
As each month became more of a struggle, I countered the feelings of defeat by waiting on you, counting on the promise of seasonal fertility, and remembering Thanksgiving week of the past two years. But, this time, November, you bring me one month closer to infertility.
But as much as this has broken me down, as difficult as it was for me to utter “Happy
Thanksgiving,” as ungrateful and bitter and forsaken as I felt on the day that twice held the secret joy of knowing the spark of life had begun in my womb…
I cannot forget this:You gave me Calvin in 2008. You gave Rainbow in 2009.
Thank you for my babies – they are my everything, even when I feel like nothing.