Last year, for our first Christmas without our babies, Louie and I went away. We spend it in Las Vegas as an attempt to avoid the triggers and give ourselves some respite. We were still reeling from Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Meet My Son
I chose these pictures from the Calvin Phoenix Photo Project, because on this The 5th Belongs to Calvin, six months after delivering my 4 1/2 month old baby boy, I want to share the ways in which I Continue Reading »
For As Long As I Carried Him
Calvin at 13 weeks 2 days (January 29, 2009) 4 1/2 months ago, I went in for an ultrasound, excited to see my baby, to learn whether my first child would be a boy or girl, to call my son by name, to Continue Reading »
Sometimes, I Need to Fall Apart
I don't like choking down tears. I don't like pretending to be happy or content when all I can think about is how my baby should be with me, how I should still be pregnant, how Louie and I should have Continue Reading »
