A Birthday Gift from Charlie

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“I love Calvin. He was my brother.” This morning, we stopped by the art store after our chiro appointment, and Charlie picked out paper that he wanted to use “to wrap Calvin’s present.” It was green foil with green dots. After we got home, he asked me for a box….

I choose to live and to honor you

I created this digital card in honor of my son Calvin’s 50th month in heaven, for my fellow sisters in babyloss on International Bereaved Mothers Day, and for the 1 year anniversary of Still Standing Magazine. It was not my choice to survive without you… So I choose to live…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: It doesn’t mean you are forgotten

“I was too broken to appreciate the intimate relationships others hold with my babies. Now I realize that those relationships are sacred, that my babies don’t belong just to me. And that means something wonderful: they aren’t forgotten. “

Happy 4th birthday to my first born.

I’ll see you in heaven, my Calvin. Mommy loves you. (Posted via Instagram)

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: 47 months

Happy 5th my Calvin… I can’t believe next month will be 4 years. I miss you everyday. (Posted via Instagram)

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: My two boys

I “stole” this image from the hubby to post because seeing Charlie hold big brother Calvin’s urn makes my heart ache and swell at the same time. Happy 5th Calvin. (Posted via Instagram)

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: The latest I’ve ever been

I have been writing this post in my head for weeks. It’s been on my mind since before November 5th, yet here I am, almost at the end of the month and finally getting the words down and planning to finally click the “Publish” button. It’s not that I forgot….

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Deeply Loved

During my freshman year of college, Louie gave me a blue stuffed bunny that was wearing a knit Easter sweater. I named it Louie Bunny. Then, I started calling Louie Bunny. Then we both started calling each other Bunny. When I got pregnant with Calvin, we referred to him as…