Today marks 2 months since I found out about my baby's passing. It also marks what should be would have been the beginning of my 27th week of pregnancy. My estimated due date was August 4, 2009. Continue Reading »
Though I Am Broken, He Lifts Me Up
Yes, I do have faith in God, and I truly believe He has a greater purpose for calling Calvin Phoenix. After I delivered Calvin, I decided that I would lay my son at His feet, that my first child, my Continue Reading »
My Failings as a Mother
I should not have exerted myself so much in the beginning of my pregnancy because I was spotting and cramping for almost two months of my pregnancy, and it increased when I was on my feet and walking Continue Reading »
Easter Without Calvin
While I was pregnant with Calvin, I looked forward to all of the holidays I would get to spend with him in my belly - his first of almost every major holiday with me and Louie. I found out I was Continue Reading »
the absence of pain
While I was pregnant with Calvin, I had this sharp pain in my lower back; it was mostly on the right side, but sometimes it would move to the left. It started early in my pregnancy. I would feel it Continue Reading »
Did my body already know?
I was randomly opening up an old journal and found this in an entry dated October 30, 2001: (Oh yeah, more of Dream 2): was pregnant but it was weird. it's like a bubble. belly button is popping Continue Reading »
Signs of My Baby
It wasn't until I was on my way to work that I remembered dreaming about Calvin. It was almost like the day in the hospital, when they brought him into the room so we could hold him. Except he was Continue Reading »
