The natural progression of matter is from order into chaos. Aromas born of a carefully crafted medley of herb, spice, and sustenance, for example, only reach our nostrils through the random dispersion Continue Reading »
I is for Ignorance (Uncovering my ignorance through grief)
In the baby loss community, we point out the ignorance of those who don't understand what we're going through, who expect us to just pick up and dust off and move forward, who don't stop and really Continue Reading »
H is for Hiding (My need to cocoon)
Since losing Calvin, I've found myself becoming more reclusive that I already was before my world cracked open. I'm very much an introvert; I need to be away from people to regain my center, but over Continue Reading »
G is for Goodness (Finding grace in this grief)
Losing a child is not a good thing. It is not a blessing. It is not something any baby-loss parent I know would ever wish on another person. However, goodness can and does come from it. When we are Continue Reading »
E is for Envy (Happy for you and sad for me)
In my last A to Z post, I did f instead of e, because, well, f was more appropriate considering how I was feeling. Now, I'm picking up what I skipped by talking about something that seems to be very Continue Reading »
We are walking for our babies
On April 30, we are walking in the San Francisco March of Dimes March for Babies as a family team. We chose Blessed to Be Broken as our team name to acknowledge both the heartache that has come from Continue Reading »
D is for Damaged (All kinds of broken)
About a month and a half after delivering Calvin, I wrote a post on my failings as a mother. I just felt so broken... A broken woman who couldn't fulfill her biological role of carrying to term. A Continue Reading »
B is for Body Dysphoria (My body is not a wonderland)
I wrote about this picture before and how much I loved that it captured so much of my pregnancy, how much I missed the discomforts of being pregnant after losing Calvin (see the absence of pain). When Continue Reading »
