After I had Calvin, I was inspired to move forward and finally started a website at CalvinPhoenix.com (which is now archived at my main domain, Louie Loves Crystal). I decided that Calvin Phoenix Design would be my small business name, and started posting some of my work.
Then I got pregnant with Rainbow and lost her, too. Devastation. I never registered my business name, because it felt wrong not to include both of my babies.
Eventually I decided on Phoenix and Rainbow. I thought this name would be perfect, that I wouldn’t need to worry because I couldn’t possibly lose another child, and my living children would understand.
Then I got pregnant with Gaelen. And I lost her, too. More heartbreak. The reality that there is no threshold of losing babies and almost giving up.
But I wanted something I could hold onto, something that would not just be for my babies in heaven, but also for future children and for myself.
Then came Dandiewinks
Dandiewinks is a combination of the words dandelion + winks. The dandelion seeds represent my babies. The winks represent, well, the winks I receive from them that keep me feeling inspired and connected to them. And the name Dandiewinks is also fun and whimsical, and that’s a part of me that I believe my babies would want me to hold onto.
So here it is, on Calvin’s special day, with a little nervousness: the pre-launch of Dandiewinks.com. Please feel free to stop by and check out our first project under the new name: a header illustration for Meg, aka Helicopter Mommy. You can also keep in touch by “Liking” the Dandiewinks Facebook page. I’m so excited to move forward with this renewed adventure.