My babies inspire me to create. Capture Your Grief is an annual, 31-day mindful healing project that consists of photography and reflection. It is for “anyone who is grieving the death of a baby or child at any age or gestation.” Learn how you can participate or provide support at Carly Marie Project
Read MoreTo those who say not to let my grief define me, I say, "Why not?" Our everyday experiences shape who we are. So why not the extraordinary ones that rip our hearts open? A heart that knows mourning is tender not only to its own aching but to that of
Read More"To the woman who possesses a life giving heart, broken wide-open for the child she loves." For all mommy-hearts, whether you hold, miss, or long for your children, whether your kids were born from your womb, your heart, your friendships, or your occupations.
Read MoreThis month, the 5th is special for several reasons: this is Calvin's 50th month in heaven (that actually makes me want to cry, knowing how long it's been since I've held him), it is International Bereaved Mothers Day, and it is the 1 year anniversary of Still Standing Magazine and the heavenly birthday
Read MoreChairs, Candles, and Tissue Not long after losing Calvin, Louie and I began attending a bereaved parents support group through the hospital. We met in the same room every week for two months. The chairs would be arranged in a circle, and in the middle of the circle would be a
Read MoreIt's been 38 months since Calvin was born. I can't believe it's been over three years. Especially in the early days of grief, it was hard to imagine surviving. But here I am, a survivor of stillbirth, two miscarriages, and infertility. Today, I am 35 weeks and 5 days pregnant
Read MoreSometimes the words get so jumbled and mixed up with everything that you're feeling and wanting to express that you need to distill it down into as few syllables as possible. This is for my paternal grandmother, my Mama Sue, who passed away unexpectedly last week. Suzuko Kondo Zapanta (August 1, 1934 -
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Dear Calvin, It's your 35th month in heaven, and I can't believe your 3rd heavenly birthday is just around the corner. I wanted to do something creative and design-y for today. So, I decided to create a Valentine's-inspired e-tag with the message Always, I will carry you in my heart, because
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