Choosing to deliver you with mommy was the greatest honor of my life. Happy 20th in Heaven, Calvie. This month's The 5th Belongs to Calvin post is by Calvin and Rainbow's daddy. (I love the way you Continue Reading »
Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day
I made this Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day Cupcake at Calvin's Cupcakes in remembrance of all of the little ones we've lost and ache to hold and in honor of the love we continue to carry Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Calvin’s Song
Dear baby, I need you to know it's all right, though I still cry for you. I am broken, but I'm broken by love. And I'd rather live in pieces than to have lived without you. (You are my light.) And I Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: The artist and the writer
Yesterday was the anniversary of Calvin's due date, and although my heart was heavy, there were no tears. This morning, though, they are just below the surface of a breath, barely touched by a blink, Continue Reading »
Please join us in remembering Calvin Phoenix on his 1st birthday
Dear family & friends, Tomorrow, March 5th, is Calvin's Phoenix's 1st birthday. Though we cannot celebrate it with him here, we still choose to honor his life and what he means to us. As part of Continue Reading »
I miss my son.
On this day last year, I had my third and last prenatal appointment with Calvin. It was Ash Wednesday. Louie and I went to Mass in the morning at St. Ignatius Church before going to UCSF. (That day, Continue Reading »
Wordless Wednesday #2: Written in the Stars
Thank you so much to Amanda at Written in the Stars for putting my sweet babies' names in the sky and giving me another beautiful way to remember my children. Amanda is a baby loss mommy who lost her Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Phoenix Fire
Halloween This year, I was determined to carve a pumpkin, because I've never done it before, and I wanted to do so for Calvin and for me. Maybe I tried it once a long time ago, but that memory is Continue Reading »
