It's been 38 months since Calvin was born. I can't believe it's been over three years. Especially in the early days of grief, it was hard to imagine surviving. But here I am, a survivor of stillbirth, Continue Reading »
“…you remember that they lived…”
I think this may end up being something I do often as a way to remember and honor my first son, Calvin Phoenix, who is 38 months in heaven today. I created the following card as a reminder to others Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Deeply Loved
During my freshman year of college, Louie gave me a blue stuffed bunny that was wearing a knit Easter sweater. I named it Louie Bunny. Then, I started calling Louie Bunny. Then we both started calling Continue Reading »
Grief after grief
This is a photo of Mama Sue from when she was younger and lived in Japan. We buried her this afternoon. We released balloons, sang a Japanese children's song that she taught us when we were younger, Continue Reading »
Remembering my grandmother
Sometimes the words get so jumbled and mixed up with everything that you're feeling and wanting to express that you need to distill it down into as few syllables as possible. This is for my paternal Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Showers—a guest post from Daddy
For Calvin's 3rd heavenly birthday, I asked Louie if he would do a guest post on my blog to share some of our story from his perspective. I'm glad I asked, and I'm glad he agreed, because even now, I Continue Reading »
30 answers for 30 years
This past Sunday was my 30th birthday. It wasn't until last week when Louie I were talking about my birthday and he mentioned The big 3-0 that I realized how old I was turning. My response was, Continue Reading »
In My Heart giveaway winners
Since, I didn't have that many entries on the In My Heart giveaways, I decided that all of you will get what you asked for :). Hi-resolution name tag winners, please email me at Continue Reading »
