Every time I watch this video, I am reduced to big, heavy tears. Tears of missing Calvin, Rainbow, and Gaelen, Of wanting them here—alive. Of wanting Calvin and Rainbow nestled on either side of me Continue Reading »
Almost Wordless Wednesday: REI at UCSF
This was one of the first indicators that I had crossed the threshold into infertility. Continue Reading »
My infertility update: Clomid fail
A couple months ago, my reproductive endocrinologist told me and Louie that I have low ovarian reserve. She suspected this based on my low follicle count, and it was confirmed by my blood test Continue Reading »
For the next 3 to 4 months
Am I just going through the motions? Or is there still some small fragment of hope in me? Continue Reading »
A small miracle, verified at the RE
After three months of on-and-off (but mostly on) bleeding, of working with my body to learn what it needs and what is harmful to it, of working with my chiropractor to find the right supplements and Continue Reading »
Looking back, so I can face forward
I've been meaning to share my plans/hopes/desires for 2011, because that's what you do at the beginning of the year, right? I don't it's really so much that the advancing of a year holds special power Continue Reading »
What dreams may come
So apparently, January 13 is Make Your Dreams Come True Day. Didn't you know? The point of this day is do something – anything – that will bring you even an itsy-bitsy, teenie-weenie (yellow polka Continue Reading »
Goodbye 2010, hello infertility specialist
On Thursday, I went to the doctor for abnormal bleeding. I've been spotting/bleeding almost every day of December. I dread going to the ob-gyn, especially when it's a new doctor, because it puts me in Continue Reading »
