I decided to get off the bus early on Wednesday and just wander down Clement Street because I knew Louie wouldn't be home until after 10pm because of his class. I walked into Genki, and as we usually Continue Reading »
To Make You Feel My Love
I first heard Adele's rendition of this song on a Pandora station I created for Duffy, and it immediately made me think of my son. I had no idea I could love as deeply as I love Calvin Phoenix. It Continue Reading »
Dreams and Fears
I've had two dreams about giving birth to a dead baby. I'm in the hospital, and I know it's a different place and time. I remember pushing and laboring, then passing out. I have flashes of them Continue Reading »
I will keep you
for Calvin I will keep you in my heart and carry you there each day. And when I am in my deepest of grieving, my son, I will remember the morning I held you in my arms and saw you in your father's. Continue Reading »
Bright Eyes: Happy Birthday, Milo
In memory of Milo Henry Salomonis - MiloSalomonis.org Bright eyes, keep watch over them, as you dance on clouds above. Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Meet My Son
I chose these pictures from the Calvin Phoenix Photo Project, because on this The 5th Belongs to Calvin, six months after delivering my 4 1/2 month old baby boy, I want to share the ways in which I Continue Reading »
Calvin’s Friends
Not too long after the day I spent at the beach with Calvin, I came across Melissa's blog, 2FeetOnEarth1intheStars, and her request for the Calypso Name Project in celebration of her daughter's 2nd Continue Reading »
Thank You for Bearing Witness
I want to thank those of you who responded to our cries yesterday, on what was supposed to be Calvin's due date. By bearing witness to our grief, you held us. With each message Louie and I felt lifted Continue Reading »
