Today, June 4, is Charlie's due date, and I am still pregnant. Honestly, I was afraid to even hope my body could carry him full term; I didn't think I could make it through May. But here we are. Here I am feeling utterly blessed and scared at the same
Read MoreIt's been a long time since I've updated specifically about Bumble Bee, who, as you must have gathered from the title of this post is a boy. We've named him Charlie. And there will be ultrasound photos at the end of this post. When we found out we were having another
Read MoreDear Calvin, I am the furthest I have ever been in pregnancy, carrying your baby brother or sister. Today, I am 18 weeks and 3 days. I delivered you at 18 weeks and 1 day. Although you did not come out of my womb alive, although you were born two weeks
Read MoreDear Calvin, On Thursday, I had the NT scan with Bumble Bee. It was at the same place where I had my first ultrasounds with you, where I first saw and heard your heartbeat, where they told me they found amniotic bands during your NT ultrasound, and where the doctor told
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First, thank you so much for all of your encouragement, support, thoughts, and prayers. We are so grateful and so overwhelmed by all the love that we're receiving for us and our babies. Second, as you can tell from this photo, our ultrasound went well. We were able to see Bumble
Read MoreWe're going to see Bumble Bee again tomorrow afternoon, and I should be 6 weeks and 4 days along. This is around the time that we should be able to see the fetal pole and a heartbeat. And that is what I really, really, really want to see. I know
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For the past 8 days, I've been sticking one of these capsules in me when I wake up in the morning and before I got to bed at night. I don't like it. It's uncomfortable and messy and sometimes it hurts. But I will keep doing this for the next
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Because I was so anxious and worried and nervous and scared and terrified that I might have an ectopic pregnancy that would burst while I was traveling to Florida, my nurse agreed to do a blood test to see if my hCG levels were high enough to do an ultrasound
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