Three flowers

I attended a “Walk to Remember” remembrance walk and ceremony in Clearwater with some of my BabyCenter GBJ girls, their husbands, and their rainbow babies. Part of it included putting flowers on and around a memorial tree, planted in the park for babies who have died and their families. The…

One small pregnancy goal at a time

On October 7, 2011, Posted by , In Charlie Bastian,Pregnancy, By , , With No Comments

Because I was so anxious and worried and nervous and scared and terrified that I might have an ectopic pregnancy that would burst while I was traveling to Florida, my nurse agreed to do a blood test to see if my hCG levels were high enough to do an ultrasound…

Between death and eternity

On October 6, 2011, Posted by , In Calvin Phoenix,Life, By ,, , With No Comments

Our current home is between the hospital where I found out Calvin was no longer alive and delivered his still body from mine and the columbarium where his ashes will be inurned in a niche that is for him and his sisters and, eventually, us. In several ways, we’re very…

We are five girls and one boy

On October 4, 2011, Posted by , In Family, By , With No Comments

The NaBloPoMo prompt for today is: Are you the oldest, youngest, middle or only child? Talk about siblings. {Photo credit: Ed Pingol Photography} I am the oldest of six. I have four sisters and one brother: Michelle, Raquel, Jeannette, Jannelle, John. Here’s something I wrote about six years ago (with…

I always bring my BBT thermometer

On October 3, 2011, Posted by , In Charlie Bastian,TTC & Infertility, By , With No Comments

The NaBloPoMo prompt for today is: What is something you always pack on a trip? For that past two years, one of my packing staples has been a digital thermometer, a digital basal body temperature thermometer to be exact. For those who don’t know, your basal body temperature is your…

Between Love and Fear

Project Pee-a-thon ended with very much wanted results for me and Louie, and we held onto the high of congratulations, support, encouragement, and prayers for days. We told ourselves we would enjoy this blessing and hold onto the joy. I promised myself I wouldn’t get caught up in the fear…

Between

I’ve decided to participate in NaBloPoMo (National Blog Posting Month), a daily blogging challenge that offers a theme and prompts to guide you along the way. This month’s theme is “Between,” which goes perfectly with how I’ve been feeling and where I find myself: between hope and despair, between love…