October 15th
Three of my babies died. I miss them. I love them. I remember them — not that I've ever forgotten. It's just that today, I am allowed to be a bereaved mother, to mourn, and to speak of the Continue Reading »
Father’s Day with a Living Son
I didn't know how much more I could fall in love until I witnessed the way he loves each of our children. Today is NOT his second Father's Day, but it is his second time spending this holiday Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: International Bereaved Mothers Day – I choose to live and to honor you
This month, the 5th is special for several reasons: this is Calvin's 50th month in heaven (that actually makes me want to cry, knowing how long it's been since I've held him), it is International Continue Reading »
Happy 2 Years in Heaven, My Gaelen
(photo posted via Instagram) Today marks two years since we had to say goodbye-til-heaven to Gaelen Evangeline, our third baby. She's been sending us heartwinks ever since. Happy heaven day, Continue Reading »
Grandkids on His Handlebars
My dad asked Louie to paint his handlebars with the names of his grandchildren. So Louie painted *all* of their names: Divinity, Jayden, Sky, Jayme, Calvin, Rainbow, Kimora, Jayde, Gaelen, Kihana, Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: The latest I’ve ever been
I have been writing this post in my head for weeks. It's been on my mind since before November 5th, yet here I am, almost at the end of the month and finally getting the words down and planning to Continue Reading »
Day 6: What Not to Say (Capture Your Grief)
They're in a better place: as a parent, it's hard to accept that there is a better place for my child than with me, and even though I know being with God is the best place, it won't stop my Continue Reading »
