Time has not healed me. Time will not heal me. Yes, I believe I am healing, but there is a difference between healing and healed. The first is a process; the second is an end that I will not reach Continue Reading »
Happy Easter Calvin Phoenix, Rainbow Baby, and Gaelen Evangeline
It's still hard to believe that I haven't been able to celebrate Easter on earth with any of my children. We lost both Calvin and Gaelen during Lent and Rainbow just before Christmas. It's Calvin's Continue Reading »
J is for Jolt (What it feels like to know it’s over)
The natural progression of matter is from order into chaos. Aromas born of a carefully crafted medley of herb, spice, and sustenance, for example, only reach our nostrils through the random dispersion Continue Reading »
I is for Ignorance (Uncovering my ignorance through grief)
In the baby loss community, we point out the ignorance of those who don't understand what we're going through, who expect us to just pick up and dust off and move forward, who don't stop and really Continue Reading »
H is for Hiding (My need to cocoon)
Since losing Calvin, I've found myself becoming more reclusive that I already was before my world cracked open. I'm very much an introvert; I need to be away from people to regain my center, but over Continue Reading »
G is for Goodness (Finding grace in this grief)
Losing a child is not a good thing. It is not a blessing. It is not something any baby-loss parent I know would ever wish on another person. However, goodness can and does come from it. When we are Continue Reading »
E is for Envy (Happy for you and sad for me)
In my last A to Z post, I did f instead of e, because, well, f was more appropriate considering how I was feeling. Now, I'm picking up what I skipped by talking about something that seems to be very Continue Reading »
We are walking for our babies
On April 30, we are walking in the San Francisco March of Dimes March for Babies as a family team. We chose Blessed to Be Broken as our team name to acknowledge both the heartache that has come from Continue Reading »
