I chose these pictures from the Calvin Phoenix Photo Project, because on this The 5th Belongs to Calvin, six months after delivering my 4 1/2 month old baby boy, I want to share the ways in which I Continue Reading »
Thank You for Bearing Witness
I want to thank those of you who responded to our cries yesterday, on what was supposed to be Calvin's due date. By bearing witness to our grief, you held us. With each message Louie and I felt lifted Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: A Joyful Pain
How mysterious are the ways of the Lord, that the most painful day of our lives was followed by the most fulfilling. March 4, 2009: This was by far the worst day of our lives, when we learned of Continue Reading »
I’m Not the Only One Who “Needs Help”
Someone who I desperately need to understand (because of this person's significance in my life), believes that because I lost Calvin so early in his life, my pain is easier compared to someone who Continue Reading »
For As Long As I Carried Him
Calvin at 13 weeks 2 days (January 29, 2009) 4 1/2 months ago, I went in for an ultrasound, excited to see my baby, to learn whether my first child would be a boy or girl, to call my son by name, to Continue Reading »
Walking with You – Naming Our Babies
"Walking With You" was created by Kelly at The Beauty of Sufficient Grace to help support those who have lost a child. Together we share our stories, helpful information, scriptures, encouraging Continue Reading »
Is This My New “Normal”?
after a night of being so overwhelmed by the grief and pain of losing my son that it felt like dying, today i'm ok. perhaps i'm getting used to these recurrent slamming into a glass wall/getting Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Calvin’s Life
It's been four months since we said both hello and goodbye to our son. This is difficult for me because I was 4 1/2 months pregnant with Calvin when we lost him. To think that he has been gone from us Continue Reading »
