Because grief is as real as love, I mourn. I mourn my babies by saying the same things over and over, by finding different ways to say these things again and again: I hear them with each step I Continue Reading »
Happy Birthday, Mama
On Saturday, Louie and I went to visit my grandmother at the cemetery. It was her birthday. We brought Calvin. I thought about her rocking him in her arms and singing to him. I emptied and rinsed Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin – Right Where I Am: 822 Days
822 days = 19,728 hours = 27 months = 1,183,680 minutes = 2.25 years = 71,020,800 seconds. That's how long I've been without my son. That's how long it's been since I delivered Calvin into this world Continue Reading »
Kimora Update and Message from Raquel
My sister wanted me to pass on her thanks for your support and prayers for Kimora and their family. She also told me that seeing people share the graphics of Kimora has made her feel less alone and Continue Reading »
Something for Calvin and something for Charlie
Something for Calvin Three years ago, I sewed this cap and blanket from a pillow case. It was the pillow case Louie used when we were in the hospital to deliver Calvin. I remember sitting in my Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Calvin Loves Kimora (updates below)
This month's 5th is dedicated to Calvin's cousin, Kimora Michaela, who was born two months after Calvin's first birthday. One year ago, I posted about Kimora and her family: first to ask for Continue Reading »
Fervent prayers needed. Please, please pray with us
Dear family and friends, I am begging you to join me and my family in prayers, in using whatever faith you have, in using all the love and goodness you have in your heart to surround my niece, my Continue Reading »
Happy Easter Calvin Phoenix, Rainbow Baby, and Gaelen Evangeline
It's still hard to believe that I haven't been able to celebrate Easter on earth with any of my children. We lost both Calvin and Gaelen during Lent and Rainbow just before Christmas. It's Calvin's Continue Reading »
