Every time I watch this video, I am reduced to big, heavy tears. Tears of missing Calvin, Rainbow, and Gaelen, Of wanting them here—alive. Of wanting Calvin and Rainbow nestled on either side of me Continue Reading »
“Because Grief is As Real as Love”
Because grief is as real as love, I mourn. I mourn my babies by saying the same things over and over, by finding different ways to say these things again and again: I hear them with each step I Continue Reading »
B is for Body Dysphoria (My body is not a wonderland)
I wrote about this picture before and how much I loved that it captured so much of my pregnancy, how much I missed the discomforts of being pregnant after losing Calvin (see the absence of pain). When Continue Reading »
Bauble winners and questions answered
Six bauble winners Since not that many people commented on Rainbow's angelversary post, I've decided to just give each one a bauble – so if the following lovely ladies could email me your Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: From Daddy
Choosing to deliver you with mommy was the greatest honor of my life. Happy 20th in Heaven, Calvie. This month's The 5th Belongs to Calvin post is by Calvin and Rainbow's daddy. (I love the way you Continue Reading »
Happy 28th Birthday, Louie!
Some of you may have heard about how I busted up my shoulder, elbow, and wrist, and did some nerve pinching in the process. But how I can I not get on here to wish my husband a happy birthday, Continue Reading »
Why I’ve been away (Congrats to my husband!)
My unread list in Google Reader continues to climb, and I'm sure it'll hit 200 sometime tomorrow. I apologize my dear bloggie friends, but I'm sure you agree that family comes first and my time lately Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: This is Calvin’s Daddy
In addition to announcing the winner of my Something Happened giveaway, in this The 5th Belongs to Calvin post, I wanted to share a little bit of Calvin and Rainbow's daddy – the man who has Continue Reading »
