Dear Calvin, I had my first prenatal appointment with Bumble Bee on Wednesday. The nurse-midwife asked about my previous pregnancies, and when she heard me call you "he," she asked what your name Continue Reading »
Remembering the Little Ones we Miss
In honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, Calvin's Cupcakes is offering this free PAIL Cupcake for you to use for your baby/babies. Just click on the image to get the larger version. In Continue Reading »
Three flowers
I attended a "Walk to Remember" remembrance walk and ceremony in Clearwater with some of my BabyCenter GBJ girls, their husbands, and their rainbow babies. Part of it included putting flowers on and Continue Reading »
Between death and eternity
Our current home is between the hospital where I found out Calvin was no longer alive and delivered his still body from mine and the columbarium where his ashes will be inurned in a niche that is for Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: A Visit to Florida
One of the most surprising thing that happened after losing Calvin (and each of my babies) was finding friendships in unexpected places. I was amazed and uplifted by receiving compassion, Continue Reading »
Patterns I shouldn’t dwell on
It was a Sunday. The Sunday after Ash Wednesday. Louie and I were attending Mass at St. Basil's Church. We wanted to light a candle by the Sacred Heart of Jesus. There were no more candles. Louie Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Dandiewinks Prelaunch
I've been interested in many-things artsy, crafty, and designy for almost as long as I can remember. From making flyers, programs, and invitations for family, my youth group, and department events in Continue Reading »
S is for Stop (and sit with the grief)
Be strong. Don’t cry. You should be happy. He wouldn’t want to see you like this. Don’t let him see you like this. Don’t cry. He’s in a better place. You should be happy. You’re lucky. Just try again. Continue Reading »
