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The Donate Art Project at Beyond Words Designs

Stephanie, mommy to heaven baby, Amelia Rose, is the artist behind Beyond Words Designs and does beautiful work that supports grieving parents, honors the babies we have lost, and celebrates life and pregnancy. Recently, she started the Donate Art Project, which provides beautiful art cards for families who have lost…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: A simple gift for bereaved parents

It’s been 38 months since Calvin was born. I can’t believe it’s been over three years. Especially in the early days of grief, it was hard to imagine surviving. But here I am, a survivor of stillbirth, two miscarriages, and infertility. Today, I am 35 weeks and 5 days pregnant…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Deeply Loved

During my freshman year of college, Louie gave me a blue stuffed bunny that was wearing a knit Easter sweater. I named it Louie Bunny. Then, I started calling Louie Bunny. Then we both started calling each other Bunny. When I got pregnant with Calvin, we referred to him as…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Showers—a guest post from Daddy

For Calvin’s 3rd heavenly birthday, I asked Louie if he would do a guest post on my blog to share some of our story from his perspective. I’m glad I asked, and I’m glad he agreed, because even now, I continue to learn what it’s like for him to walk…

30 answers for 30 years

This past Sunday was my 30th birthday. It wasn’t until last week when Louie I were talking about my birthday and he mentioned The big 3-0 that I realized how old I was turning. My response was, Nooo… I’m not turning 30, yet. Wait. I am. Really??? I remember when…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: In My Heart Giveaways

Dear Calvin, It’s your 35th month in heaven, and I can’t believe your 3rd heavenly birthday is just around the corner. I wanted to do something creative and design-y for today. So, I decided to create a Valentine’s-inspired e-tag with the message Always, I will carry you in my heart,…

The 5th Belongs to Calvin: You made me a mother

Dear Calvin, I am the furthest I have ever been in pregnancy, carrying your baby brother or sister. Today, I am 18 weeks and 3 days. I delivered you at 18 weeks and 1 day. Although you did not come out of my womb alive, although you were born two…

Warm wishes from our family to yours