This is a photo of Mama Sue from when she was younger and lived in Japan. We buried her this afternoon. We released balloons, sang a Japanese children's song that she taught us when we were younger, Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Showers—a guest post from Daddy
For Calvin's 3rd heavenly birthday, I asked Louie if he would do a guest post on my blog to share some of our story from his perspective. I'm glad I asked, and I'm glad he agreed, because even now, I Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: The NT Scan
Dear Calvin, On Thursday, I had the NT scan with Bumble Bee. It was at the same place where I had my first ultrasounds with you, where I first saw and heard your heartbeat, where they told me they Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Always, You Matter
Dear Calvin, I had my first prenatal appointment with Bumble Bee on Wednesday. The nurse-midwife asked about my previous pregnancies, and when she heard me call you "he," she asked what your name Continue Reading »
Three flowers
I attended a "Walk to Remember" remembrance walk and ceremony in Clearwater with some of my BabyCenter GBJ girls, their husbands, and their rainbow babies. Part of it included putting flowers on and Continue Reading »
Patterns I shouldn’t dwell on
It was a Sunday. The Sunday after Ash Wednesday. Louie and I were attending Mass at St. Basil's Church. We wanted to light a candle by the Sacred Heart of Jesus. There were no more candles. Louie Continue Reading »
S is for Stop (and sit with the grief)
Be strong. Don’t cry. You should be happy. He wouldn’t want to see you like this. Don’t let him see you like this. Don’t cry. He’s in a better place. You should be happy. You’re lucky. Just try again. Continue Reading »
