It's been 38 months since Calvin was born. I can't believe it's been over three years. Especially in the early days of grief, it was hard to imagine surviving. But here I am, a survivor of stillbirth, Continue Reading »
“…you remember that they lived…”
I think this may end up being something I do often as a way to remember and honor my first son, Calvin Phoenix, who is 38 months in heaven today. I created the following card as a reminder to others Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Deeply Loved
During my freshman year of college, Louie gave me a blue stuffed bunny that was wearing a knit Easter sweater. I named it Louie Bunny. Then, I started calling Louie Bunny. Then we both started calling Continue Reading »
Not-so-Wordless Wednesday
For the past 8 days, I've been sticking one of these capsules in me when I wake up in the morning and before I got to bed at night. I don't like it. It's uncomfortable and messy and sometimes it Continue Reading »
Looking for Brown
Have you heard of Beryl Young's Illuminate photographic healing class? It's a 5-week course that combines creative photography and journaling for bereaved parents. She's currently offering a free Continue Reading »
Illuminate: Color Your World lesson in Photographic Healing
Brown represents the things I long for, the things I'm working towards: comfort, endurance, stability, trust, simplicity, home. I want all of these because I want to show my heaven babies that I am Continue Reading »
Day 5 of Project Pee-a-thon
Day 5 Rundown Cycle Day: 22 Days Past Ovulation: 7 HPT Result: BFN Symptoms: Some pinching/cramping throughout the day, tender breasts, small bouts of nausea (similar to the Clomid Continue Reading »
Days 11 & 12 of Project Pee-a-thon: Second Lab Results
Pregnancy update and a photo pregnancy tests to follow, so please feel free to click away if this is not something you can or want to read about right now. I understand. Continue Reading »
