Tomorrow morning, my RE will remove the "products of conception" from my womb. I'm not found of that wording, but technically that is what is happening. This is not something that I have blogged or Continue Reading »
Update on Gaelen
First, thank you so much for your thoughts, for your prayers, for your words of encouragement, for your tears, for your anger and frustration, for just being here with us. Grief can be very lonely and Continue Reading »
Three babies in heaven
Even as I write this, I am praying that the doctor is wrong, that the ultrasound is wrong, that my baby lives. I know that if it is His will, He can still breathe life into this tiny being I still Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Happy 2nd birthday, my darling
Calvin's birth Two years ago, at this time, I was at the hospital in labor with our first child. Louie and I were alone. We were scared. We knew our baby was dead. We knew our baby had birth defects. Continue Reading »
Please join us for Calvin’s 2nd birthday in heaven
Tomorrow, March 5, is Calvin's 2nd heavenly birthday. We invite you to join us in honoring and celebrating our sweet boy on this special day. There are many ways in which you can remember him with Continue Reading »
the ugly cry
you know the kind. the kind that fills your entire body and wracks it with sobs. the kind that fills the silence of morning and mourning as primal, gutteral cries force their way through your gasps Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: You are remembered
Louie and I have never spent a night away from Calvin's ashes. When we visit family for a weekend, we bring his urn, his main stuffed animals, his memory box, and his journal. We carry all of these Continue Reading »
Looking back, so I can face forward
I've been meaning to share my plans/hopes/desires for 2011, because that's what you do at the beginning of the year, right? I don't it's really so much that the advancing of a year holds special power Continue Reading »
