My LifewithLouie Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: The Space Between Us
The Calvin Phoenix Photo Project Photo of the Month: CalvinE and Crystal Hill Continue Reading »
A Bunny for My Baby
I decided to get off the bus early on Wednesday and just wander down Clement Street because I knew Louie wouldn't be home until after 10pm because of his class. I walked into Genki, and as we usually Continue Reading »
Dreams and Fears
I've had two dreams about giving birth to a dead baby. I'm in the hospital, and I know it's a different place and time. I remember pushing and laboring, then passing out. I have flashes of them Continue Reading »
To the Father of My Missing Child
I know I can't make you whole again But I'm here. I'm here to catch your tears in the palms of my hand, to try to make the landing a little less rough when you fall, because I'm falling, too. So Continue Reading »
Though I Am Broken, He Lifts Me Up
Yes, I do have faith in God, and I truly believe He has a greater purpose for calling Calvin Phoenix. After I delivered Calvin, I decided that I would lay my son at His feet, that my first child, my Continue Reading »
Easter Without Calvin
While I was pregnant with Calvin, I looked forward to all of the holidays I would get to spend with him in my belly - his first of almost every major holiday with me and Louie. I found out I was Continue Reading »
A Place for Calvin’s Ashes
The hardest part about looking for an urn for my baby was having to acknowledge my baby's death. Each picture I looked at, every description of dimension and size – it was like being told over and Continue Reading »
