Dear Calvin, I am the furthest I have ever been in pregnancy, carrying your baby brother or sister. Today, I am 18 weeks and 3 days. I delivered you at 18 weeks and 1 day. Although you did not come Continue Reading »
Warm wishes from our family to yours
Remembering the Little Ones we Miss
In honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, Calvin's Cupcakes is offering this free PAIL Cupcake for you to use for your baby/babies. Just click on the image to get the larger version. In Continue Reading »
Three flowers
I attended a "Walk to Remember" remembrance walk and ceremony in Clearwater with some of my BabyCenter GBJ girls, their husbands, and their rainbow babies. Part of it included putting flowers on and Continue Reading »
Patterns I shouldn’t dwell on
It was a Sunday. The Sunday after Ash Wednesday. Louie and I were attending Mass at St. Basil's Church. We wanted to light a candle by the Sacred Heart of Jesus. There were no more candles. Louie Continue Reading »
The 5th Belongs to Calvin: Dandiewinks Prelaunch
I've been interested in many-things artsy, crafty, and designy for almost as long as I can remember. From making flyers, programs, and invitations for family, my youth group, and department events in Continue Reading »
I Would Die for That by Kellie Coffey
Every time I watch this video, I am reduced to big, heavy tears. Tears of missing Calvin, Rainbow, and Gaelen, Of wanting them here—alive. Of wanting Calvin and Rainbow nestled on either side of me Continue Reading »
“Because Grief is As Real as Love”
Because grief is as real as love, I mourn. I mourn my babies by saying the same things over and over, by finding different ways to say these things again and again: I hear them with each step I Continue Reading »
